Night 6 or 7 with insomnia, I forgot when this cycle started...
The way it works for me is the first night of insomnia I wake up at 4am. Almost just enough sleep. But every night after a wake up an hour earlier and then an hour earlier.. and so on. Until my body freaks out and I sleep for half a day. last night I woke at 12:30am.. I am almost at the breaking point.
Last nights adventure, I tried focusing on the ceiling fan in an attempt to squelch the torrent of random thoughts surging through my brain meat. Everytime my mind traveled to some stressor or memory I would yell at myself to FOCUS ON THE CEILING FAN. I had to refocus every 5 minutes because at this point in the night, I am about 70% - 95% batshit insane. It got to the point where I was almost worshiping the ceiling fan. It was a she, not sure why, and she was great and powerful and was going to lead me to sleepy salvation!
She was the Mystical Ceiling Fan Goddess.
For your entertainment, I drew a picture of me praying to the Mystical Ceiling Fan Goddess last night.
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